I see a new school year begin and I think all the new students thinking they have everything figured out.
I saw others with nice cars and nice homes and thought that should be my goal. Possessions and the pursuit of objects were the things that were to make me happy and give me a sense of fulfillment.
So, I worked hard at my job and at working into getting into Pharmacy School. When I arrived at school I was excited about the future I thought I wanted.
Then I came to the realization that I wasn’t happy. There was something missing but I couldn’t figure out what it was.
This was to be what I wanted and what I worked so hard to achieve. It wasn’t.
“Our life is frittered away by detail. Simplify, simplify.”
— Henry David Thoreau
Grinding time away
While I was working and trying to get into Pharmacy School I became so narrowly focused. My attention was on getting into the school and have the pre-planned life.
I didn’t give myself an opportunity to grow outside of that focus. It was like the rest of my life was on pause for that time.
This became a spiral of unhappiness. I wasn’t growing or stopped growing, as a person.
This resulted in lowering my contributions to others resulting in fewer personal interactions leading to further unhappiness. It was a horrible feedback loop of hollowness.
I didn’t know that I needed to change until I failed out of the school. I realized I was making my life complicated and noisy for no reason that made sense.
What I was looking for was simplicity. I found a path to simplicity when I started working on this site.
Getting to the fundamentals of what I need to live the life I plan for my needs instead of some abstract or competitive needs of others.
It’s still a work in progress but I got into the habit of wanting a simpler life. A life without the clutter of things I think I need to buy or vacations people say we should have.
“There is no greatness where there is not simplicity, goodness, and truth.”
— Leo Tolstoy
The path back
I’m trying to take back control of my life so I could focus on whatʼs important. So I could focus on life’s deeper meaning though connectedness and contribution.
Finding happiness through simplicity, as far as I’m concerned, is through living a meaningful life.
A life that is by my design using my goals and vision. One where we grow as individuals and contribute to other people in meaningful ways.
Growth and contribution, these, I think, are the foundation of happiness.